oh, the holidays...

SO -- thanksgiving is coming closer and closer! and of course the sad thing is, i am NOT excited whatsoever. it's just another year to bring up all the family drama and go through the most awkward moments of the year. woofreakinghoo.
anyway, i would like to take this moment to thank KOST 103.5 for making my life filled with happy holiday music 24/7 until christmas day. you make this season so very very special and i love you for it! no joke, even if it's 80 something degrees outside, there's not a cloud in the sky, i'm wearing shorts and a t-shirt -- hearing christmas music still makes it feel like christmas. I've been doing some shopping the last couple weekends and i can't wait for this year!! :D i think this is the first year everything/everyones pretty much covered! i LOVE christmas shopping, but hate the amount of stuff i find for myself (which i then end up labeling "to nicole, from santa" when christmas comes around).
i don't get why the holiday season makes you so vulnerable. it's like the second time of year (besides valentine's day) where it'd be 98120829317 times better with someone special in your life. sometimes i wonder if the reasons people stay together when they're in shit relationships is because of february 14 and december 25/31. sad times...
i guess i should really appreciate this year's festivities, seeing as last year my thanksgiving was spent in the corrie tap with three awkward people talking about absolutely NOTHING. and i'm pretty sure my dinner consisted of mashed potatoes and corn. soo, what am i thankful for this thanksgiving? i'm thankful for my mom, my sister, my godfather, my good good friends, being able to go to school, being able to drive, being able to live where i live, being able to go shopping every weekend, being able to travel and see my babes, my babes, and just everything/everyone i have in life that i usually take for granted.
Thank you for putting up with me through all the good/bad times. :)

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

if you're never forgotten, how else can you be remembered?

so the old blogging phad didn't last too long did it? i completely forgot about it all until just now!
it could've been because i was dying of the flu of the swine and my body totally collapsed on me and put me in bed for over 3/4 of the day. le sigh. now if i can only handle this cough, i'll be back to normal!

so i decided to use my blog to talk about the problems of guys and.or relationships. jonny don't worry, i'm not going to be referring or implying anything that has to do with you...most of the time. :D
so today my topic is about men, and how little they really are in life. haha In personality psych we were discussing Freud's sexists theories about how women were damaged versions of men -- and we had "penis envy." It's a pretty standard view for someone of his time. So this lady named Gloria Steinem created a satirical theory about men. She said men had womb envy, and men were never going to be as good as women in terms of health care and professions that had to do with in the home skills (ie. cooking, doctors, nurses, etc) She also said that men will never be able to be good lawyers because they aren't naturally capable of big decision making. Women, on the other hand, are. We have the ability to decide between life and death (birth and nonbirth). Men are mono-orgasmic which makes them sexually inferior and women, being multi-orgasmic, are naturally sexual aggressors. oh and V-neck shirts are basically a recapitulation of the "V" of female genitalia. i dont knowwww, a lot of what she is saying is completely ridiculous, but i like it. I wonder how the world would be if women were first regarded superior to men. If we were allowed to vote, hold political office, etc. For one, we wouldn't have any war. Women are far less selfish and sneaky. No one would care who's government colonized which government and which land was whose. We're not as naturally possessive, competitive, nor greedy. Second, all our stupid "there she blows" sorta references. Countries, ships, cars would most likely be male because they'd be our bitches. I will say one thing, there would be a hell of a lot of shit-talking. You'd definitely see more of Japanese fashion being a NOT and who wore it better between French and Egyptian leaders in the mags. But besides the petty, everyday critique, I think we'd all be happier, more caring, better looking people.

the end.

sickkkkk.

i am SO SO SO SO SO SO SICK. it's disgusting. :(

head aches.
body aches.
nose stuffed.
throat burns.
voice gone.
so exhausted.

and to top it all off he's gone.

on a lighter note...halloween has come and gone! :) loved everything. it was almost exactly like old times (with a couple years added on and minus a few drama people)
will update on my life after i rise from the dead. but just in case i don't make it through -- i want my body cremated and put into a painting.

lovessss.